Dissociation

I like the way

you seem to circle your little hands

around my heart

and pull back when

I'm so close to grasping it.

Phase

Somehow or rather.. I feel that days cruise past extremely fast. With a blink of an eye, they smack you right in the middle of the week and who knows.. Friday approaches and a fresh new week begins.

So I asked myself: What have I achieved after seventeen long years?
I paused momentarily..
Nothing much I guess.
Cold hard facts.
I've got to work on it.

On a lighter note, I enjoyed today's Critical Reasoning Skills lesson. Paired up, Ed and I did a discussion on the topic of Censorship. The teacher commented that it was well done. No rebuttals.

Anyways, it's getting late.
Ciaos!~

Pleasant days in school

Number 1
Pick your battles.. choose one that is favourable to your circumstance and not the other way round. You set those undesirable ones aside cause you don't have to be in all.

All of us needs at least one or maybe two close friends. Someone who knows all about you and likes you just the same. A friend may well be reckoned the masterpiece of nature. A friend is the first person to come in when the whole world goes out. A friend loves at all times. A friend is one who remains true to us under all circumstances and is one of life's choicest blessings.

Some of life's hurts are so deep and painful that to forgive the people who caused them seems impossible. However, forgiveness is the experience of healing that drains the poison from the wound.

Sometimes.. love sure hurts. Maybe if we don't love them it wouldn't be so hard. To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything and your heart will be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact.. you must give your heart to no one. Wrap it carefully around with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements; lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness.

To love is to take risks, to expose our hearts.

J.

Xenophobia

Sometimes.. We have to get lost to find ourselves.

IAATF X Y-3

Day2

Unfortunately, we were late for school yet again. And this time round.. it was almost thirty minutes! All thanks to the wet weather causing traffic to be congested. Bus21's velocity couldn't match up with the racing time. Thus, leading to Ed's late arrival at the MRT station. Interesting part was.. When we got there.. The teacher uttered a sentence or two and she concluded with.. "Alright class, you can go off for your break now!" The lesson for us was merely a minute? Jezus Christ. Shouldn't have even rushed to school. Luckily, we didn't cabbed down.

Good night fellas.

Alarm is gonna sound at 6.

Ciaos!

Cruxification

To everything there is a season, a time for
every purpose under heaven: A time to be
born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a
time to pluck what is planted; a time to kill,
and a time to heal; a time to weep, and a time to
laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance;
a time to cast away stones, and a time to gather
stones; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain
from embracing; a time to gain, and a time to lose;
a time to keep, and a time to throw away; a time
to tear, and a time to sew; a time to keep silence,
and a time to speak; a time to love, and a time
to hate; a time of war, and a time of peace...

I shan't elaborate much about..

First day of school
Off to Republic Polytechnic right after lessons with Alson & Edd to meet up with Sue and KJ. Alone time at Raffles City's Starbucks then to town for a rather short while. Back to City Hall to meet Ed and Romie right after their work. And home sweet home!
Lesson starts at 8 tomorrow. I've got to get to bed now!
Ciaos.

Thoughts

Today's the commence of school term.
That means I've gotta clear my mind.. Off any distractions.
Having a good start is usually an incentive. Thus, I've to clear my blurred vision and stay focus on what I'm working towards.
That is.. the goal on the other side of the field.

Caught 17 again @ Tamp mall with the others; Eddie Phoebe Iris Jerome Weisen KahJun Dylan and Alson. Then back home.

Truth is.. I'm not all that excited for school tomorrow.
One of my reason is that I've known my classmates already..
So there will be no suspense.
Lessons will begin at 10 later on.
Gonna sleep right after this or I'll be dead tired.
Edd's working tomorrow.. that means I'm going back home alone.
Ciaos.

Aloy's B'DAY!

"Ohm Chi Chi, Ohm Chi!
Tuki Tuki Tuki.. Tuki!
Tong Kat Tong Kat!!"

"This Is The Game Of ___ Stupid! ___ Stupid.. ___ Stupid!"
(Blank would be a person's name. As always.. Kah Jun would be the main showcase. HAHA!)

Yesterday was one hell of a night!
Aloy's party was great..
Actually, the word awesome would describe it better.
Hope he enjoyed his day! Happy 18th Birthday once again.
I shall update with pictures when they are ready.
Ciaos.

Tangled heart-stings

Never getting anywhere.. His chest now weighs some 40tonnes carrying a huge load of attachments. They say.. he'd never win. But still.. He tries.. He hangs in there waiting as time races past..

A short day out..
Headed down town to meet the others after dinner with mum and dad. Met them at Cineleisure.. and off to Parklane for a short LAN-gaming session. Cabbed back home right after that and here I am blogging.

Today's Aloysius birthday and BBQ session at his place later on!
Can't wait to meet the whole bunch.

You ought to realise that life's isn't all about frontallabs..
So what if you're part of it?
You're still a shallow person deep down and wimp on the surface.
Apart from that.. Whats with comming over here?
How about identifying yourself?
Then we'll see if you're even comparable with our league.
Maybe.. I'll even disintegrate my words back to my vocal folds.
However, you're in no stature to even begin with.
Pussy boy.

Boredom

Uncalled for
Individuals creating a commotion evolved from hatred to dissing them by categorizing and discriminating. Merely, on an online based platform. Seems intriguing.. but rather annoying.

Stay home frenzy. 2 days and still counting..

They kill their target and won't stop even if they had been cremated, thrashed and dispersed. Seems like they're sprawling an on-slaught. Boredom kills..

The commence of school term isn't all that charming. My vital signs aren't complying with the current situation I'm in. The feeling of unprepared-ness, lost and mid-low esteem are re-igniting. A metamorphosis ought to be crashing in.. or I won't pull through..

Alright I'm heading out now. Ciaos~

A step back.

13Aprilo9
ORIENTATION.Day1

Travelled down to Dover with Edd and Phoebe. P, she got off at City Hall for her first day of work at Raffles City's Springfield.

First day of school was alright.. I was really excited at first. Cos' I'll be able to know who's my classmates and all. However, there was nothing much planned for us except few performances which wasn't that amusing. The MC was rather hilarious though. He'll add random jokes to his speech. No games or whatnot's.. just long draggy speeches by our Principal and the Director of CLS then back to some classroom which took us years to get to for some briefing and appointing of class representatives. Glad that our class tutor is friendly.. He would crack jokes whilst speaking and he seems rather cheerful in a way. Wednesday would be SPICE training. I doubt I'll be going down for that. The following day would be our Flag Day. Yes.. I can't wait for school to start proper. Then I'll be heading down to school with Ed, Sean and Dylan. Also, having meet ups with Alson and Shawn for breaks. Great!

After Orientation, we met up with Sean. He was practically waiting for us for almost 2 hours as he ended his earlier. After which, we headed down to Chinatown for our extremely late lunch. Then off to Ann Siang. Ed and I were scouting for shoes. Can't seen to find any which looks appealing. We left rather in a jiffy, because there is practically nothing much there. We took the train down to Dhoby Ghaut and headed down to Cathay. I got black Raglan there. A short walk and we've already arrived at Cineleisure. Ed bought his pair of shoes from Fred Perry, the pair that I initially wanted! Ass. Feebee left work slightly earlier and came down to look for us! Then.. we went to Botak Jones for dinner! Plenty of coins used to trade for my Fish & Chips and 2 Cajun Burger. Haha! Back to Cine for a game of pool with Ed. Always, its my treat. Cause I'd never win. Score: 3-1 HAHA! Alson and Jerome came after work and all of us headed back.
Supper with Aly & Ed at Tmart and stay-over at Ed's place.


As you can see, the amount of solid(J's) not proportionate to the stripes(Ed's)

Feebee:)

Romie

Sean

Farewell

2-days before Ziyang left for N.S.

Sat's night
Drinking session at our usual hangout in Elias.
Met up with Ed, Aloy & Dylan at Cineleisure's Koufu for dinner.
We had few rounds of pool while waiting for the rest to knock off from work. Feebeee & Iris came shortly. Sadly, Iris left soon after as she was meeting her friends for movie.
Met Romie and Alson after their work and we got 'wan wan' for transport back to east side. Rest dropped of at Aloy's place while me and Ed headed back to get changed. Supper with Ed & P before we headed over to our usual spot to meet up with the rest.




Sunday
Steamy steamboat with the whole bunch.
I love gathering sessions like this.
Headed down to Tampines1 with Phoebe early in the afternoon for my interview @ Springfield. We went to Ed's mum shop right after to look for both Ed and Ziyang. After which, met the rest and we left for Bugis to have our steamboat!

Rave

Humans are always not satisfied with what they have.
Instead, they want more. Till they lose things that are so dear to them and once within their grasp. I've come to a realisation that I have to be contented for what I have around and not to demand for more. You'll not always get what you want.

Short day in town.

Cabbed down to town with Weisen to meet up with the rest;
Ed, Feebee, Aloy and Alson for dinner at Botak Jones.
Soon after.. Timmy, Shawn and Shanker came down.
After which we headed back to Cineleisure to chill.
Waited for Romie to knock off from work and we headed back.
Supper with Romie @ White Sands Macdonals.





Home sweet home.

Its 340 and I'm still unable to get to sleep.
I'm heading down town tomorrow again to meet up with Ed right after his work. Both of us planning to get new kicks. Shopping first then off for our drinking session with Ziyang before he leaves for national service this comming Monday. Will miss him much, definitely.

School's starting very soon. That means I've to get back on track. Getting my sleeping hours right and heading out less often. Time management is a factor which I have to comply. Getting my study hours right. Making sure that the time spent on outings do not outweigh those allocated for studying. Alright, I shall stop blogging for now and try to get some sleep.

Tamp

Finally, I had proper sleep today.

Today's a great day! Extremely elated.

Firstly, I woke up recieving a message from my TPJC class mate saying that I got an A from 'A' levels Project Work! Great.

Next, I bought my Headporter Shati Daypack! Ohmygawd finally. $270 gone.

I had been searching for it for months I swear. I need a new backpack for school thats why! I found it at a shop called 'Queen's Ave.' at Tampines One while I was walking around.. Initially I went there for Uniqlo's opening with Romie. Haha! Super high.
Iris came down after her work to look for us.
Around 11, I met up with Ed and P after their work for supper at the Prata House. Romie and Iris didn't tag along.
Home sweet home after that.

Last thing which made my day is that..
I'm in the same class as Ed.
Class : DOPT/FT/1A/04

Damn happy!

Smile

Everyone is working.
J is feeling pretty much useless.
J is feeling pretty much aimless.
J is feeling pretty much lost.
I've got to get a job soon.

Long day out again.


I got up late today. Damn.
I thought I was gonna have a long train ride to Dover by myself.
Luckily, I bumped into Iris when I was about to enter the MRT station. She dropped off at City Hall as she was heading down town to work. I met Ed at Singapore Polytechnic while he was admist his enrollment process. Phoebe met us soon after her dental appointment. She lost her retainer few days back and now..
She has to get it replaced.
Next, we headed down to Raffles City for lunch.
I didn't eat cause I was feeling kinda full from the hotdog bun I had earlier.

After which, Ed went off for work and I accompanied Feebee to get her manicure done at FarEast Plaza. Shopped around and off to Shaw to meet Romie and then we went to look for Alson and Iris.
Then we all went for lunch. Ed came down as well.
They all went back to workplace after their lunch break.
Accompanied Iris to Zara to get her jeans and off to Wheelock.
She headed back soon after.

Me and Phoebe pratically romed the streets and malls of Orchard. For hours! Hahaha. We bumped into Timmy and co. and we went back to look for Alson. We then headed down to Raffles City Starbucks to wait for Ed to knock off from work. Met the others at a chicken rice restaurant somwhere near Rocher's Beancurd.
& Last train back home!





I'm gonna have at least 12 hours of sleep tdy.
Need to rejuvenate myself.
Ciaos.

I've let a step down.. a step too deep into the abyss. I don't wanna get out.

Focus

'IT'S NOT HOW GOOD YOU ARE, IT'S HOW GOOD YOU WANT TO BE.'
- world's best-selling book by Paul Arden.
I've just bought this book from Kinokuniya today.
And I can't wait to start flipping through the pages!

Alright! I haven't been getting sufficient sleep these few days..
The stay over at Eddie's place drained almost 1-quarter of my energy.
Followed by a long day out. Lost yet another 2-third or my remains.
Now.. I'm left with 1-quarter of the energy that I've started off with.
Okay I was elaborating with a little too much nonsensical details. Grins*

Initially, we went to Feeeeeebeeee's place.
Ed had to print some stuffs for his enrolment thing.
Sadly the ink of the printer ran out.
Phoebe and Ed then headed over to my place to get it done.

Highlight of the week -
PICNIC! 6April09 (Mon)






Alright got to get ready for bed now!
Alarm is gonna go off at 7 in the morning!
Dover again!
To accompany Ed to do his enrolment and P to her dental Appt.
Ciaos.

Senses

Labels, Branding?
Will these improve ones' cirumstances in any aspect?
I guess not. It merely drains our parents' wealth.
Mum & Dad work their asses off each day..
trickling blood sweat and we're here indulging?
I definitely have to minimize my spendings.

Alright, much of reflecting.
Just realized that its past 3 in the morning.
And I have to head down to Singapore Polytechnic tomorrow.
Needa get up by 12! Ed's comming over to do some last minute essay.
Ciaos~
Ed: Its all about the face. (haha)

Pic of the day: with Phoebe & Ed!
(Taken @ P's place with her huge teddy bear.)